41 is the new…. awww, who am I kidding?

I’m having a hard time keeping my chin up today.

Maybe it’s the annual spring sinus infection (as opposed to the autumn, winter and summer versions). Maybe it is the layer of snow that fell this morning like a heavy wet blanket on the daffodils and willow buds. Maybe it’s the fact that as of this morning I am officially 40-something. Maybe my blood-sugar’s low and I should skip all the frou-frou and cut straight to the birthday cheesecake.

Whatever. I’m not feeling it today.

My writing schedule’s been hijacked by pre-school field trips and doctor appointments. I don’t get to enjoy my birthday gift of a new patio set (see paragraph 2, sentence 2 above) and the grey sky seems so heavy and low as to be resting directly on my forehead. Is it spring break yet? Can anyone get me to the Florida Keys cheaply?

*Deep sigh*

Photo by lisarlena

Maybe 41 seems so hard because 40 was so awesome. Glitter in the Sun, my first book after a lifetime of wishful thinking, saw the light. First as a self-published project and now soon to be reissued under the umbrella of a Real Publishing House. I also wrote my first novel, The Dictator’s Daughter. It’s hard to describe the sense of accomplishment that still gives me. I can pick up this big stack of papers and say, “here is my novel.” Even better, friends who have read it are asking what happens to the characters next.

And I began training for my first 5k race. Sadly the annual sinus infection has stalled the process, but I’ll be back at it as soon as I can breathe again.

Maybe, then, what I need is a new set of goals. What can I do in 41 that will put 40 to shame?

I know what I’d like to see happen in the next 12 months. I want to finish writing the second and third books in the Dictator’s Daughter series. I would like to sign with an agent who adores my books and is sells them for big bucks, along with the movie rights to a major publishing house and studio. I would like to take Glitter in the Sun to every major Twilight Convention in the nation and make a huge difference in this generation with the message of hope God has given me.

Big dreams, yes. But then last year, if you had asked me, publishing one book and writing another seemed pretty improbable too.